Wednesday, January 28, 2009

trying


I do not have a lot planned for today, just more of the same. On my to do list is to get my carpets cleaned and fold a ton of laundry. I hate folding laundry!
Yesterday Amber told me how she feels about my mom getting custody of my niece. It was not nice at all. Amber talked to my niece's step dad and to her step sister. The family is just torn apart by this. They all know that they will never see her again once my mom gets sole custody. The date has been set. My mom will get sole custody on February 25.
I really did not know what to say to Amber. I listened to her rant and express her feelings. Then I finally said well maybe you should tell Gran how you feel. Amber then asked me if I was ever going to speak to my mother again.
I had to think about that. I said at some point I will, but I said my peace before I left and as of right now I have nothing left to say.
Does my silence speak louder then words? Does my silence show the pain that my mom has afflicted on our family? I just don't know. What I do know is that I have come to a point where I am trying to move on and picture my life without my mom in it. I am trying to move past the hurt.
One thing I have learned is that you better be careful what you wish for, you just might get it. My mom wished for custody, and she got it. Soon she will have a 12 year old moving into her house. At 60 something years old my mom will now be raising children again....alone because she has isolated everyone else in the family. How sad.
On Friday my dear husband is going to do our taxes. Oh I so want to have someplace to go! I hate it when he does taxes. There is always very loud grumbling and lots of yelling at the computer! Oh the joys of tax season.
Yesterday went very well. Some of the ladies are met were very up tight, but for the most part they were very nice. I will say that I gained so much knowledge from these ladies, and that is something that you can't put a price tag on!
One of the ladies spoke of her 27 day cruise of all the major battle fields of the pacific. My ears were burning. Rusty had said in the past that he would love to do that. I learned so much from this lady and her pictures were just amazing!
Life is good when you take the time to learn from older women.

2 comments:

Queenneenee said...

Hi, I have been following for a while now. I went back a while ago and read from the beginning. I may have missed or forgot, but I wanted to ask why is your mom getting custody of the 12 year old a problem? I know your sister passed away recently and for that I give my condolences. I too lost a sister at a very young age (37) due to substance abuse issues. I was just wondering what the deal is with this child. I love reading your blog. Denise aka queenneenee

Missy said...

Friend, I just wanted to stop in and say thank you for your kind words regarding the death of my sister.

I also want to offer my condolences to you as well. I understand that you have also lost your sister. It's not easy friend.

E-mail me sometime if you would like to talk. I will start following your blog but it'll probably be a few days before I get around to reading.

*HUGS*
Missy

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