Can you believe?

I had to take Rusty into work today and I was happy to do so. It gave us time to talk without a bunch of ears around.

I told Rusty that the last time I talked to my mom she admitted that she was depressed to hardly function. My mother is going to work and that is about it. I did not say anything to my mom, I just let it go. I told Rusty that I really need to think about this before I voice my option on this subject.

I have several concerns. I can only imagine the stress that she is under because in the last two years she has lost a husband and a daughter. Now she is taking on raising a 12 year old. I have spoken my peace on that subject, not that it matters. What can I do from here? If my mom does something crazy that what happens to hell child?

Rusty had no real advice for me on that subject. I need to really think this one through before I say something.

Then the subject of my money came up. I have been told by a few relatives that my dad left me some money. To the tune of six figures. I have not seen this money, nor have I asked my mom about this. Rusty would like to know if it is true. So would I, but how do you ask a question like that? Does the money really matter. To me it does not. I would buy my dream car and then put the rest away for the girls.

Rusty said that he is waiting for the other shoe to drop. Since my dad and my sister have died we have done nothing but hear rumors. The one person that would know the truth would be my dad's older sister, but I have not spoken to her in 19 years, so I don't feel that asking her would be the right answer to my questions. I am just leaving all of this alone.

I did tell Rusty that I have feeling once my mom dies that there is going to be a huge mess to clean up.

After I got back from taking Rusty I checked my e mail. I got an e mail from a dear friend telling me that she has a new baby girl. O.K. wait one second. I talked to you a few weeks ago and you were not pregnant! I am guessing that they adopted.

I am to old for shocks like this. I do not have a baby girl blanket ready! Oh my head hurts. I am so happy for them. They will be awesome parents, and now it give me an excuse to go see them!

I think we have everything ready for winter camp. I know Chris is happy to be going.

OH! speaking of Chris. I found today that his sister told his mom that he is not living here. I did not want this women to know where Chris was, that is why we told her that he was living here. Chris is doing awesome. He is going to school and he will graduate this spring. Someone paid for him to go to winter camp and he is looking into going into the service.

Chris is finally getting his life together after his mother tore it apart and now his sister goes and does this. The sister is on my shit list, and I told Chris this.

The rest of my day is calling me. Lets pray for no more surprise babies and no more trouble from Chris's family.