Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I did what?


I actually took the time to do my hair today. Now I am wondering why. We are in such a marriage rut. Now the last time I said I was in a marriage rut I was gluing tea cup to saucers and wearing my dead dad ties.
I am married I should see my husband more then a few hours a day. I should be having sex all the time! I want hot nasty pig sex. I want to wake up the next morning and wonder how we chocolate on the ceiling! And yes that has really happened.
It is St. Patty's day. I am so missing my dad. My dad use to play Irish music for us. Does anyone remember the unicorn song? I love that song.
I think my whole life is in rut. I want to laugh until I cry. I want to push my limits. I want to do something that will scare me. I want to run away to the ocean and look for sand dollars. Instead I am sitting here blogging.
Rusty has promised me that he will put a new radiator in my car this weekend. Then I will more freedom to go do stuff. I was not meant to live a life routine. I was born to be the one who pushes the limits.
I have not fired my .22. I am thinking I will head down to base and go shooting. I will have to wait until this weekend and make sure that all of the boy's go with me. I want to remind them that I am still a good shot.
Three of the marines are on their way out. The one that just got home wants to do a rapid redeployment. What is up with these boys? I know that war is what boys do and old men talk about. I know that It is their job. I am just so sick of this damn war. Every time the boys leave we roll the dice and they come home. I fear that my luck will run out. I fear that their future wives will lay in bed and wonder if this damn ptsd will ever get better. I hate the marine corps and I hate this damn war.
However I know without these brave young men I would not have any of the freedoms that I have today. I would love to have all boys here at one time. I want to walk up to them one by one and give them a kiss.
Even if I am having a pity party for one. I still have a great life and I know that.
Life is good.

7 comments:

natalie said...

Happy Saint Patricks Day Kelli!
What a lovely tribute to yuor dear father! I loved reading ti!
I am so glad that Rusty is going to fix the radiator or something so that you can get out some more!
I love the pathos that you described...we are all going through these emotions, yet you are a great writer because when you write the way you do, we can all see yourself and ourselves int he writing!
I salute you Good friend!
love,natalie

Nelishia said...

Happy Saint Patrick's Day, Kelli!

I'm glad your radiator will at last be fixed. We all feel so emotional at times. I don't do emotions and target practice on the same day though. LOL

You have khutzpa, lady. I still admire it.

Nelishia

Paula said...

When you get your car fixed you need a day out with a girl friend. You deserve it.

LYN said...

A long time ago, when the Earth was green
There was more kinds of animals than you've ever seen
They'd run around free while the Earth was being born
And the loveliest of all was the unicorn

There was green alligators and long-necked geese
Some humpty backed camels and some chimpanzees
Some cats and rats and elephants, but sure as you're born
The loveliest of all was the unicorn

The Lord seen some sinning and it gave Him pain
And He says, "Stand back, I'm going to make it rain"
He says, "Hey Noah, I'll tell you what to do
Build me a floating zoo, and take some of those

Green alligators and long-necked geese
Some humpty backed camels and some chimpanzees
Some cats and rats and elephants, but sure as you're born
Don't you forget My unicorns

Old Noah was there to answer the call
He finished up making the ark just as the rain started to fall
He marched the animals two by two
And he called out as they came through
Hey Lord,
I've got green alligators and long-necked geese
Some humpty backed camels and some chimpanzees
Some cats and rats and elephants, but Lord, I'm so forlorn
I just can't find no unicorns"

And Noah looked out through the driving rain
Them unicorns were hiding, playing silly games
Kicking and splashing while the rain was falling
Oh, them silly unicorns

There was green alligators and long-necked geese
Some humpty backed camels and some chimpanzees
Noah cried, "Close the door because the rain is falling
And we just can't wait for no unicorns"

The ark started moving, it drifted with the tide
The unicorns looked up from the rocks and they cried
And the waters came down and sort of floated them away
That's why you never see unicorns to this very day

You'll see green alligators and long-necked geese
Some humpty backed camels and some chimpanzees
Some cats and rats and elephants, but sure as you're born
You're never gonna see no unicorns.

LOVE THAT SONG!!

LIZ said...

Hope you get your car fixed so you can start doing those things that YOU want to do!!!

Melissa said...

i hate when im in a rut. wow...chocolate on the ceiling! I hate wars too..wish there was no such thing.

ADM DESIGN'S said...

Hope you had a great St Patricks Day!! wow...chocolate on the ceiling..hope you and rust have the hot nasty pig sex you want..;-)lol

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