Saturday, November 1, 2008

my daughters

My daughters are the love of my life.

Today my heart breaks for Amber. Today Amber watched her soldier boy leave for Iraq.

So here Rusty and I being the rock that Amber needs. I know how hard it is to watch someone you care about leave. I know how unfair life can be.

I want better for my daughters. I don't want them do ever date anyone in the military. All the guy will do is break their heart. Every time this country call, they will pack their bags and leave. Then there will be my daughter waiting on him and crying herself to sleep. I want better for my daughter. I don't want them to live the life I have lived.

I must ask myself at what point do I stop trying to protect my children and let them fall. I just hate seeing Amber cry. This part of being a mom sucks.

Last night was the first night that all of the marines got together at the house.
Nikki came in about 11:30 and the first person she saw was Lewis. Nikki ran up to him, jumped on him and gave him a huge hug.
Later on I over heard Nikki explaining to her so called boyfriend why she gave Lewis a hug.
That just ticks me off. Who in the world does this guy think he is? Nikki has not seen Lewis since he got home! Maybe this so called boyfriend needs to find out what it is like to have true friends.
It just ticks me off that Nikki was explaining her actions to this boy. As far as I am concerned she only has to explain herself to Rusty and I.
Today is mine and Rusty anniversary, so I am going to go and do something nice for Rusty.


Tightening the Corset Again said...

You can share your concerns with your kids, but they will choose their own path... sometimes just to spite you!

How long have you and Rusty been married? Congrats!


a corgi said...

Happy Anniversary!! wishing you and Rusty lots more happy years together!!



Paula said...

A very happy anniversary to you and Rusty.

Traci said...

Happy Anniversary! Blessings to Amber! They do tug at our hearts. We always want the best for them. I'm really laying it on thick about how they need to be treated by friends and boyfriends.

Pamela said...

Happy Anniversary to you and Rusty! I can't wait to hear how you celebrated.
Hugs Pam

Indigo said...

Happy Belated Anniversary!
...and yes, I came a day late just to say that *winks*...It was 2 years ago that I finally learned I had to let Skye fall. I think at this age and part of being a mother during this

When our kids are little we're responsible for them. Watching them grow up, we guide them the best we know how...and then they become adults making their own choices. The thing is we don't stop being mother's. We just change the roles around a little and we catch them when they fall. We brush them off and let them know we still love them...and watch them do it all over again.

As I said, I see what it's doing to Skye. I wish I could make her heart not hurt, I wish I could bring her husband home for her....What I didn't say in an ealier comment, when she stayed over she was quiet and a few times even snippy. I let it go...I know she doesn't realize she's doing it. It's only been a few months, what happens when it's a year?

So yeah, I totally get watching that heartbreak with our I said this part of motherhood sucks. (Hugs)Indigo

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